Crying under the raining day, no one can help and lend a hand!!! T.T

I am seriously in a deep down mood. Everything doesn't seem like going well. Result, schoolwork, relationships with friends and parents, clubs and Taiwan trip.
A called from her demolished my hope and it’s precisely a disappointed result. Our desires always disappoint us and don’t expect too much. No matter how i cry, complain and puking, the earth still moves around. No one will stop moving on because this is LIFE! I knew I shouldn’t put too much hope but it’s the prime reason why I join Leo club. I knew I shouldn’t think like that (as what Dixon said, the rewards are much more important). I still hope that I will receive a favorable reply as I really have no idea why I disqualified. It’s very silly and stupid that last year I was qualified go to Spain but parents not allow; this year, parents finally agreed but I was disqualified! @@ such a 'fortunate' huh???!!!! I really desire to go there! At least let me know why I disqualified. I am much more better than them!! They are still kid though!!! Anyway, I do respect lion’s decision. Here I am to thanks those who comfort me especially Darrel….and thank for helping me too!!!
THANKS EVERYONE!!!! AND SORRY THAT I DINT REALLY 'BEHAVE' WELL THIS FEW DAYS. I STILL NEED SOMETIMES TO SETTLE DOWN MYSELF. THE KINETIC ENERGY TOO STRONG! I CANT STAND IT!